Day 23

My hardcore sister's bike page:

Day 22

The Big D's bike page:

Day 21

It rained, but it was not a sad rain.

Sometimes I love being a medic, other times... I adore it.

Somedays, you just need a good cup of coffee. Today was one of those days.

Sitting outside the coffee shop was an old man, with the sweetest, round, cherry face, and a fall-colored, Scottish hat perched on his head. He made such an adorable picture, I wanted to pull a chair up to his table and have a "coffee" chat with him. It would have been good just to sit and soak up the morning sun, with him, elbow to elbow. Instead, I smile, say, "Good morning!" and pass.

On my way out of the shop, he stops me. "If I ever have a heart-attack, or a stroke, or something else, I want you to be the one who comes to help me... that way, when I die, you... your beautiful face will be the last thing that I see."

He doesn't have much faith in my paramedic skills. But he knows how to brighten one's soul.

Day 20

G-man. The best little "dude" ever!

Day 19

No matter where I am, or who I am, I'll always love cowboy.

Day 18

Beautiful sun.

Day 17

Wild Burro piles in Nevada. Love that state!

Day 16

My Fanbase cruising pro photo websites

Saturday night, 1815, my work day complete. I'm peddling furiously toward my little apartment, charging stop signs and swerving the yellow dotted lines. Car lights close in behind me, until they illuminate the entire road before me, but the car doesn't go around; instead, it honks loudly and I hear obnoxious yelling. My first thought was to ignore the car, but I couldn't resist getting one peak. I glance over my shoulder, accidentally throwing my bike into the middle of the lane. The car stops. My eyes bug. It's C and D! They're laughing; we're all talking.

I love surprises! Especially when they come from two people who aren't able to keep a good secret for longer then a three hours.

Sadly, this is the only picture I got of our weekend. You can tell its a super good time, if I don't think to pack my camera around with me. I suppose these memories will just have to remain a secret.

Day 15

Electric fan, circa 1920's

Day 14

The headquarters for the ambulance agency that I work for is attached to a hanger in an airport. (We do flight transports as well as ground.) The building is old, and space is limited, so our locker and fitness rooms, take adjoining corners in the main hanger which houses our helicopter.

As my main mode of transportation is bicycle, and biking in a stiff uniform with pants that are about an inch too short is extremely uncomfortable, I keep my uniform in the locker.

The women's bathroom (the only "changing" room) is in the adjoining building. Therefore, to change into my uniform I have to pass the bathroom, pass through a one-way locking door, go to my locker, unlock it, get out my uniform, go back through the locking door, squeeze past the off-coming crew in the hall,back to the bathroom, change quickly (before the dripping water faucet in the sink -the only space to place my clean uniform- has time to soak through my crisp shirt), past the crew again, back through the door, fold my clothes in my locker, make sure I have my keys, back through the locked door -you get the idea. Not a super hassle, but when I'm a few minutes late...

So I shortened the process.

For the past two and half weeks, I've been changing in the open helicopter bay after a quick glance around to make sure no one is in the line of sight. Occasionally things get "close" but in general, its been a great idea.

Today, I noticed the security camera. Pointed directly at me.

Aha. Yeah, I do remember seeing the bay through one of the six monitors in the Dispatcher's room.

There is no photograph today... Sure, hoping to remain unknown. ;)

Day 13

Day 12

Feathers.

Day 11

My Gramps. A Korean War vet. Happy Veteran's Day!

Day 10

Day 9

Rappelling at Smith Rock

Day 8

Welcome.

A break from our normal broadcast

Several months ago, a cloud of dust chased after me as I scurried off to "town" to make the BIG TIME.
The deadline for Western Cowman's annual photo contest loomed, and I had yet to make prints of my winning photographs. A few hours, a few paper cuts, and a few less dollars later, I had officially entered my first ever photography contest!
The results posted today. And I placed! I actually placed! So, check it out at Western Cowman's website!

Day 7

A cold night, a dressage show, and a glass of German beer.

Day 6

Candles in my window. Armik on my laptop.

Day 5

The first snow in Klamath County. Just over this hill, the snow was about 10 inches deep.

Day 4

Catch up complete. Two photos in celebration.

Day 3

Most incredible Saturday soccer morning.

Day 2

Already playing "catch-up" with no inspiration... hmm... maybe this wasn't the best idea.

Day 1

K and G's morning routine of lining up all their trucks at the gas tank to "fill up."

Hang tight.

Coming soon: A look at the mind through the eye of the lens. A photo-a-day blog.

Feeling

The heart breaks with joy; the heart breaks with pain.

In a moment.

In a single moment.

Impressions of Orange County

New Year's Day on September 29th

A preview of New Year's Day floated across the screen of my life.

I was walking across my college campus, lifting my brand-new-used books like I was going to be the next governor of CA. I walked by the gym catching my reflection in the full-length windows (umm, yeah, maybe this year wasn't the best to run for governor).

Movement behind the reflection caught my attention and as I peered closer, I realized the gym was packed. It was 4:00 in the afternoon, and the gym could have been a mouse cage; treadmills circling non-stop, weight machines clanking, rock music... rocking?

You go people! (And if you keep going around mid-terms -kudos to you and cheers as well!)

Here's the part that the preview didn't show, though. And its the best. The King of All, creates each day, new. Because of Him each day is the start. I can keep hopping on that treadmill because I've never before made resolutions. Never before broken my resolutions. There never was a yesterday...

Time-out.

Let me introduce you to my two youngest siblings: K and G.

If there was such a thing as bubbly lights. These kids would be the bubbly lights of my life. Bright, adorable, sweet, mischievous, and wildly the best kiddos ever!




We spent their "cowboy kid" photo shoot laughing, giggling and riding ponies -everything a cowboy kids do best!

A song of love

I'm breaking my vow of silence -the one I never took. But I noticed, in the blogging world, that you're chill and "worth the read" if you take a vow of silence for so many days, weeks or months.
The only coolness I can claim, however, is in moving to a place with snail-paced internet, which makes it not only difficult to blog, but extremely annoying.

But today, I went to church. And at church, I sang songs with all the other church-goers and Jesus-freaks.

We sang "Jesus Loves Me." All of us did.

The kids, for the first time in the last half and hour didn't fidget. Those who silently mouth the words throughout the service could be heard several rows ahead. The holy-rockers raised their hands high. Everyone stood up. And emotion clogged my throat.

Each of us told the rest of us, with every pointed word in the song, that He was King. Jesus was King and Rescuer of our hearts.

He loves me. That is why I live.

Scenes from a day on the rig

Saving lives... making a difference

This, people, is my world.

And this, too.

*"Paramedic Chronicles" were created by a former employee of MAST ambulance -my agency.

He's the Papa!

When people first meet me, they generally meet a thing of skin and other tissues encasing a large rag-tailed group of contradictions. Just as people catagorize me, and shove me into my little box, I swing off a little loop hole, or squeeze out of a crack in the corner. Leaving them reaching in the air for something to wrap their fingers around. I don't mean to be two-faced or hypocritical. I prefer to think "complex." But I guess I'll let you be the judge.

However, in order to help people understand me a bit more (and hopefully be less two-sided), I usually refer to my growing up years -homeschooling, ranching, farming, traveling, homechurching, etc. Whether their actually interested in my history, or whether it just makes me feel like I'm on the Jay Leno show, I haven't yet figured out.

But thinking about my past makes me think about my family and thinking about my family makes me think about my parents and thinking about my parents makes me think about my dad and thinking about my dad makes me think about how he has effected my life and thinking about how he has effected my life makes me think about my times with him (knee-jerk reaction sort of thing.)


My all-time favorite: In the living room, bibles open in front of us, Dad explaining the tribulation -what needs to take place before then, what will take place after, and what our purpose is in between- both of us flipping from Old Testament to New and back again. His eyes sparkling.

Riding the hay-wagon with Dad, watching the big truck slurp up the bales and stack them in the back as we bump along. Me occasionally shouting something to Dad, and him replying with a nod and a grunt.

Skiing with Dad. From watching him swish down Willamette's "Face" to stumbling after him as he hopped a line through Good Charlie's bumps. He was strong, swift and my hero. He still tops me hands down when going through the moguls. That was winter. In the summer it was him on the slalom ski, cutting the water so that it spurted out behind him in a towering rooster tail. And then we'd eat sun-chips and bagels together.

Now memories of him are flooding my heart... He's sacrificed for his family. He's loved. He's made many mistakes. He's never given up. He's an incredible guy, my Dad is.

The Just Judge

The ambulance is becoming my "thought box." Patients, circumstances, and co-workers often cause me to think and reflect and God and what He's give me. As emergency calls were few yesterday, I had a lot of time to spend in thinking in my thought box. And here's one trail of thought that my mind followed:

Being able to be forgiven whenever is a big hang up for many people.

So you say God is just and fair. Good. But tell me this: How is it that this "just God" will give the same "reward" to someone who did every sin in the book, asking for forgiveness only with his last breath, as to someone who strived after goodness and righteousness all his life?

Why is it?

Why, because God is not really concerned with sin at all, rather He's concerned with Jesus, love, and us. It's an entirely different focus. It's no matter how, who, or what sins you do. All that concerns God is that you are reconciled to Him and recognize His Son as Lord and King. Sins and wrongs, my friends, are of little importance to God.

An exchange on love and marriage

"You have a Golden Retriever here." His hand flys up in a karate chop gesture, stopping just above his head. "And then you have her, here." His hand slashes up another six inches. "She is the most loyal person I've ever met."

"Wow, that would be nice."

"Yeah, yeah it is."

"I'm sure that's what your wife thinks as well."

"NO. No, she could care less what I do... she owes me a 12-pack, and she knows it. After the first several times, I stopped trying to catch her."

"Man, I'm sorry. So why are you still together? Kids?"

"Yeah." He was broken, hurt, resigned. And she had lost exactly what she had been searching for.

People from my yesterday

"Yo hungrey?" Her brow furrowed as she looked at me, tears building in her eyes. "Oh, yo poor thang! They make yo work thet hard?"
I nodded, "I have to work for my food around here... I haven't done enough yet, tonight, so it will be a bit before I can eat."
"Oh, poor thang! Here, ya take these offa me, I gonna make yo something. Where's my kitchen?"
She was difficult to understand; her tongue had grown thick in her mouth. I leaned in to understand.
She was going to cook me up a grand feast of chicken wings -if I would ever let her go.
I didn't. And before we arrived at the hospital, she had forgotten about her whole scheme to save the poor intern from starvation. Now all she could think of was this dreadful cough that she had just discovered as we rolled through the ER door.

Her eyes were blue, pale, gray blue; one was clouded over, the pupil barely visible. It reminded me of the old scraggly dogs that I checked into the veterinary office, the summer I was a vet's assistant. But she was adorable.
"I didn't like you. But now I do. You all have been so nice. I like you." She looked up, sunshine flowing from her face. I smiled, she smiled, and the sun brightened.
She hadn't been able to catch her breath. It hurt to draw in air. It hurt worse not to. She was in her nineties and scared.
But my super-man like partners easily lifted her from her wheelchair to the cot, and she felt young again. And she liked us. And she could breath again.

His hair whipped around, eyes wide, eyes wild, as he jumped from the sound of my voice. I didn't know I was that electrifying. A blossoming red rose was tattooed on his forehead. Sections of it disappeared, in his concentration on what I was saying to him. His eyebrows were thin, black and hairless, and marked with the same permanency as his black eyeliner.
"Sir, tell me, do you always drive your van on the railroad tracks at night?" His hair whipped back around as those eyes found my partner.
Outside the ambulance, the blinking, screeching lights of the police and ambulance melded with the officers' sweeping flashlights and the occasional green flood light, into one mind-mixing scene.
He was under arrest. Not for driving on the railroad tracks. Not for crashing his car into one the buildings. Not for drinking. Not for drugs.
Long ignored child support had caught him. Caught him, on the side of the tracks, the side that he shouldn't have been on.
His eyes pleaded with me, as he stepped out of the ambulance. He was hungry and thirsty, hurt and confused. And I watched him go.

Kiki's cookie

I have never before wished that someone smoked. Until today.

I'm sitting innocently, right? In the back of the ambulance. In my nice little jumper seat in which I always sit, ostricated from any conversation, with my neck tired from straining like an owl to see were we're going. I'm not complaining. Facts only in this blog -as if you haven't noticed already.

My preceptor's partner, "Kiki" (real name not given to protect the guilty), is jab-jab-jabbing (understand, "jabbing" is an understatement) on everyone and everything. "What is with everyone today?! It's not me... I started out good today!" Yeah, and all bad moods must start when you wake up or you'll never have one.

So I'm thinking, "Lady, you need a 'tude adjustment." And since I'm already sliding down the slippery slope of judgment, and don't believe she'll find it any other way, I'm also thinking (or more like my brain is screaming), "GO SMOKE A CIGARETTE!"

Then I noticed: She already was.

And, no. If you were wondering. A cigarette didn't help. Nor did the second or the third or the fifteenth.

Pool-side conversation

They're lying there, the girl and the boy. The orange sun is lying there with them, deflecting off the water in the pool. The blue glacier is also there, between them. It rises high, cloudy and cold. But they look at each other through it. The boy's side is blurry; the ice is melting. The girl's side is blurry; the frost is tightening.

The look at each other through it. And still do not see.